Wednesday, August 18, 2010

Karma bit me in the ass

I promised a blog about how Mom was becoming my Grandma but lately I have been to sad to write something funny. As I was compiling my list of how Bev was Betty all I could think of was how much I miss my Grandma. Instead of finding humor in the Bev to Betty transformation all I found was sadness. I truly believe that Grandma still communicates to me...I am not crazy...I don't hear voices so don't be calling Jeni to see if there any open beds at Mental Health. But I know that Grandma has guided me through the last few years and today I am certain she put humor back into my life.
I come from a long line people with the klutz gene in their DNA. Today as Mom was describing to me how she fell when she was outside and smashed the freshly picked tomatoes that were in her pocket all I could think of was Grandma falling on her way home from Kroger...stopping traffic so she could gather her groceries and eyeglasses. Now I understand both of the above mentioned falls were very serious but believe me we are so accustomed to falling that it has become very comical..2 broken legs myself from falling and I still laugh about having the klutz gene.
Today was a busy day, two Dr appointments with Mom, Hannah leaving for cross country camp and haircuts for Hayden and I, my mind was always on something...as I pulled into Mom's second Dr appointment I realized that I was at the wrong Dr's office.....I was at the Kids Dr! Now mind you I had no kids with me...I swear I could hear Grandma laughing at me as I raced across town to the right Dr's office. After the Dr appointment I went to Kroger to get Hannah's required camp food from the list she gave me an hour before.... as I was checking out the cashier was looking at me like I had grown another nose and said "um hun I don't think this card is going to work" as she handed me back my Blue Cross Card. I said if you only knew how much I have used that card lately you would understand why its the first card I pull out of my wallet! At this point I have no choice but to laugh at myself all the way out to the car. I know Grandma is thinking....So you think Bev is becoming me, well honey you better take a look in the mirror!

Mom is doing well. She still has all her hair and she is even growing hair back where they shaved it for her surgery. Every time we see a Dr they tell her she is going to loose her hair. She told me today that she wishes she would just start loosing it so she wouldn't have to shave her legs. I told her I would get Suzy to come over and give her a wax job. I think she is weaker than she was, she has trouble climbing stairs ( see the above mentioned fall ) and sometimes even standing up is difficult. I also noticed she is shaking more than before. During our last Neurologist visit the Dr said the tremors were from the brain tumor and the seizure medication would keep them minimal. I called the Dr today to see if they should up her dosage...he is going to call me back. The steroid is helping with her appetite and making her face really round. Dan said "your Mom looks cute with her round face" and I agree she does look cute! Dr Littles sent Mom for a blood test to check her vitamin D because she was not sleeping well. The results came back as deficient so she is on a vitamin D 500000 once a week to be eaten with a fatty meal. She takes that fatty meal very seriously and plans for it all week. This week it is going to be prim rib and mashed potatoes thanks to Charlene.
Tuesday we went to the Social Security office and it looks like Mom will begin receiving Social Security Disability real soon. We were told that as long as one of her Dr's confirms her diagnosis she will be approved. They also said because she is stage 4 the process only takes about a week instead of several months. I guess that one benefit of stage 4 brain cancer.is that you move to the front of the line at the Social Security Office.
We got Hannah's results back last Thursday. She has a benign breast parenchyma with sclerosing adenosis. Yah thats what I thought too:) The Dr dumbed it down for us.....a normal substance growing between the skin and breast tissue. She suggests to leave it in and have a re-check in 3months for further growth. Hayden had an appointment for his leg and they took his cast off. He was so happy until the Dr came in and told him it wasn't healed and they were going to put another on on for 3 more weeks. He was so bummed. I feel so bad for him he will still have his cast on for their first cross country meet. I am humbled by all the people that care about my children. There is not a single day that goes by that someone isn't asking about them. I am truly blessed to have such wonderful people in my life.
Oh yah I almost forgot...Dad was standing on the tire of his truck and was reaching into the bed to get a bag when his foot slipped off the tire and he fell onto the side of the truck and broke his ribs. He is in a lot of pain and is moving very slowly. Never fear Dan and Jay are taking care of things around their house until Dad heals. They are lucky to have such great son-in-laws and Jeni and I are lucky to have such great husbands.

Wednesday, August 4, 2010

she always wanted to be a blonde




Wednesday is Dr. day at Jeppesen Radiology that means every Wednesday after your treatment you see Dr. Littles. Today he told Mom that she was going to start loosing her hair really soon. Her reply was "oh well that doesn't bother me....it will grow back" Jeneva thought she would help Grandma with a new hairstyle. Little did we know Mom always wanted long luxurious blonde hair.

This week Mom has discovered the funny side of cancer. One day when she went for her treatment they told her to take off her shirt and bra for her treatment...her response was OK but I'm not sure why you need me to do that when I am getting the radiation on my head. The tech apologized to her over and over all the time Mom was cracking up. Then when they put the mask on her nose got caught in the mask and it was pushed up pig style, she laid on the table laughing so hard she was crying. She was laughing so hard she couldn't talk and the poor tech didn't know what was wrong finally when she could talk she told him her nose was stuck and they had a good laugh together. Later in the week she and Dad went to the movie and saw Grown-ups. She is still talking about the guy with the KFC bucket on his head and laughs every time she talks about it. Comedy has always been my coping mechanism and now it seems that it is Mom's too. She thinks Jeni and I are hilarious!

Mom is feeling pretty good. So far she really isn't having any of the side effects from the chemo and radiation that we were so afraid of. We all know that she has a long ways to go but we are really enjoying our times together while she is feeling good. Today she got a prescription for thrush. She has thrush but none of the symptoms so hopefully this antibiotic will kick in before her mouth gets sore.

Tomorrow Hannah has her biopsy. She is scheduled at noon and it should take about 2 hours. She is a little nervous tonight and so is Hayden. He wanted me to assure him that Hannah's surgery wasn't dangerous to her and that nothing would happen to her while she was in surgery. Something good has come out of all of the turmoil in our lives and its that my kids have stopped bickering and have become very good friends. Some nights long after we have gone to bed I can hear them upstairs laughing & talking. What I wouldn't give to be a fly on the wall let me tell you. I can only hope that they will grow up to be as close as me and my sister and brothers.

Thanks again to all Mom's friends for the continuous phone calls, cards, visits & e-mails ( thanks Pam)

Next blog I am going to write about all the ways Mom is turning into my Grandma. Those of you who knew my Grandma will understand and those of you who didn't have the pleasure of knowing Betty Walraven will still be laughing out loud as you read the blog...It's going to be a funny one!